TODAY is the 09.02.25, can I just say why am I shidding these out so fast, I clearly said updates wouldn't happen so frequently now here I am. Almost weekly when I was like ok maybe once a month is good. I guess I be having a lot of thoughts Holy shit the purple is almost identical.

OKAY I went to flute practise. Why am I going to flute lessons you (nobody) (also certainly not the one person reading this, you know why) might wonder. Have u seen this layout. First off all I know using my own art is cringe yes but for some reason I'm attached to my human NiGHTS and Reala designs. Ok. Flute. Basically in october and or december I nEED to cosplay human NiGHTS and terrorize other cosplayers with my flute, bonus if it's incredibly off-key. I don't even know yet if the con even lets me bring the flute but who cares, if there's a will there's a way. I mean, it's just an instrument. The worst thing I can do with it is annoy people.

That aside I really do believe the flute is one of the most elegant looking instruments, and I am talking about the FLUTE not the RECORDER, I mean the silver one that my teacher said I hold like I am about to cramp up. He was also surprised I could get clear tones out of it, but when he had me play only into the mouth-part, I couldn't do it. I'm kind of doing it backwards, why can I not do the noob shit but the not-so-noob-still-noob stuff?? Writing about it makes me excited to go back next week even though I was feeling iffy for no reason

This next week I also have to go to the doctor, ugh. So much happening this month, I'm already pissed awf. A big thing happened I may or may not write about too, that's why I'm like shit got dam give me a break already. But I'm going for my ongoing nosebleeds just checking. I'm not expecting a cure or even anyone to find out what's wrong with me, just curiousity.

Back to NiGHTS this game and these characters taught me really fast that I prefer being alone and not in a fandom. Specifically because there IS NO FANDOM FOR THIS ONE LMAO. And when there is fanart or fics, it doesn't align with my opinions at all. (removed opinion used to lie here. Rest in pieces. I also mispelled peace .....)

It's just me here, making up stupid AUs, scenarios and drawing art absolutely nobody but me looks at and I love it. Opinions from others, especially ones I don't agree with, are what ruins stuff for me lol. So I just...don't even look. I'm making things that are solely for me and me alone, I feel like if everyone did that the world would be a happier place. But I do love hating as well. I love being out of the loop."Hey have u seen this" no. I don't know anything ever.

I'm trying so hard to stay away from this game because I know I will get way too excited, and the cosplay and cons are SO LONG AWAY I don't want my interest to fizzle out before that, but I can't help relapsing omg. I needed to get this layout out of my system.