Todays the 28.01.25, I tried opening visual studio code by typing villain into my search bar. Why did i do this. Is my mind tryng to tell me something. Is my brain sabotaging me and making me go back to roblox. Is the only way to live roblox? Oh also zoom out if site looks bad.

I really need to stop playing roblox so much! Theres not even that much to do on there (also script kiddies pissing me off), I should be making art. But take what i wrote in here, and up that feeling to 2000 that's how I feel right now. I want to keep going so bad, but I feel so hopeless, I have zero support system for that stuff in my life rn and it shouldnt matter either, why do I crave praise so much, it's so stupid, I mean who the hell should be drawing only to get extremely good and receive thousands of compliments, it should be for the sake of creativity but I'm stupid lol I need to re-learn how to be content on my own with nobody around me all the time. Nah, I dont think I can ever do that let's be real, I'm not a confident person and never will be.

Mainly I'm making this thought entry to try and not go insane. My mind is on a downward spiral so early in the year. How I be writing these thoughts:

Random and off topic but why does everyone assume you're a SONIC fan just because you're a Sonic franchise fan. I'm not even a big of a fan of Sonic as a character, only when I ship him with Silver methinks. Call me fake fan idc. I wish more people shared this opinion. I keep flip flopping between liking him a little and not liking him that much, ok this sounds so mean to him, I DON'T HATE HIM OR ANYTHING. I will draw him though because he has the easiest quills I think.

Anyway, my friend is sleeping over at MY place for once this friday WOW I'm excited because usually I never have people over, I go to her house often instead. My room is small and I don't have a spare of anything. Also the living room stinks of cigarettes, thank you mother. Also, I don't own a wii u but I really wanted to play Sonic games with my friend so I bought a used copy of Sonic racing transformed because according to everyone online that racing game is the best of the available ones, BUT the thing that really sold me was the big fat sticker on the copy that reads "property of (city nearby) library". Did that guy just steal that shit??? Anyway it's mine now. That's what you call Kulturgut. Artifact of ancient times. Oh and we visited the library in my city last weekend as well, and I got to see the Sonic 3 movie poster again since our library is right under the cinema in the same building. MY FRIEND BETTER BRING HER ENTIRE WII U TO MY PLACE.

I've been getting into stretching and shouting Üüüaauueeeeeuuaahhh while doing so. Agh I have more stuff to talk about but I haven't really been feeling like doing ANYTHING. Just nothing. But hey, I'm level 300+ in Sonic speed simulator now. All hail to latex Silver